The worst feeling ever!

So I got caught in a situation today I hope I NEVER have to deal with again. When I came home today, my wife was crying violently because of the pain in her tooth. I have never seen anyone cry that hard before and it left me so upset and sad that I couldn't fix my wife's pain and make it all better. I drove her to the ER and the whole way I couldn't think but i have failed her by not having a good job and insurance so she would be able to go to the dentist before it got this far. My wife was sobbing like crazy cause I can't provide for her. I know it will be a different tune when I get done with law school, but how many more times is my impotency going to rear its head and make me feel like a tool? I need to do some serious thinking.

Who woulda thunk it?

I am up on a Saturday morning after a guys night out. A little baseball and Taco Bell and my crappy week has ended nicely! I am a little weirded out about something though. I want to caveat this next statement by saying I love my Kathy and Lauren very much, but sometimes I just want to sit and do nothing and be all by myself. In theory, it sounds sublime. In practice, it does not work as well. I had the house to myself when I got home last night and it was a little weird. I also am alone today. The girls are at a Girl Scout lock in for their troop and won't be home for a bit. I have to admit, I have gotten quite used to having them around and now I will probably not wish so hard for time alone. Never saw that coming!

On a more positive note, I had the best time at the Naturals game last night! Jason and my string of undefeated at Arvest Ball Park is now broken, but it was still a great game. I had never had seats right on the field in any game before, and that was awesome! We also saw a Kansas City Royals coach there! I don't know why he was there, but it was cool!

I am gonna try to go to Mom's this morning and get a little one on one with her. We don't see each other as much as we should since we live so close together. I am gonna try to start remedying that though. Lord, help me find time for all I NEED to do!

Summer is Slipping Away

Wow, where did it go? I remember vividly the last minute I was at school, getting in my truck and realized that I was done with school for 3 whole months! I was gonna go here, gonna do that, it was titilating! Now less than a month away from the start of school, and I haven't done but maybe 20 percent of any of it. Money makes the world go around, and no money makes the world stand still! I mean I have had a great summer, don't get me wrong. I have spent a ton of time with my family and friends, had cookouts and sleepovers, did a fair amount of swimming at the Natural Dam down from the house. But I had hoped to get to the Gentry Zoo, get the Alma Waterpark in, Kathy and I both want to go to the aquarium in Tulsa with Lauren. I think that is gonna possibly be our last hurrah this summer. I found out it was worth the trip and the price of admission, so I am gonnna see if I can sock back a $100 and make it a Saturday day trip kind of thing. I know Lauren will love it and I am guessing so will we!

Figure this out

So I am sitting at the table eating my breakfast and I start thinking. Where did this new found concern for my weight and health come from? It seriously just materialized out of nowhere. I am loving it though. I have stopped eating 20-30 hot dogs a week, countless sandwiches and chips and sweets. I now snack on fruit, both at home and at work. I get at least 5 pieces of fruit a day in and even some vegetables too, which I am thinking about upping. I also have a different attitude towards food. I don't crave it all the time. In addition to all this, I have spent the last week using my morning time to ride the recumbent bike and using 5 pound weights to do arm exercises while doing it. I know all this added together has made me feel so much better about myself. I have more energy and a much better attitude. I may have an explanation for where it came from. I recall not long ago, I was floundering. I specifically recall I was trying to figure out why, even though I truly wanted to, I could not for anything get myself motivated to lose weight. I desperately tried using the motivation of staying around longer for my wife and step daughter and our kids to come. So in depseration I told the Lord that I needed help. I wanted my wife to have a good life and I wanted to be the one to give it to her till well into our advanced age. I truly believe that is where this came from. HE knew I needed help, and he came to the rescue. Thank you Jesus.

Day 2 Momentum

I am quite excited this evening! First, I got up and did the bike and upper body workout like I decided would be a good plan AGAIN this morning (thus the Day 2). I also kept my food intake low through out the day. I even cut my usual breakfast by skippin the bacon, saving it for weekends only, and only one piece of toast. I know everybody is poo poo-ing the fruit, but I am basically eating a ton healthier than before. If I am able to keep losing while eating oranges and bananas and grapes etc. then I am gonna go ahead for now. I know I haven't had a burger in like 2 weeks and I got a huge craving today! Anyway, to continue, Katherine and I also went for a walk after supper settled for the second day this week. I think we have both synced up on this weight loss thing and are taking it more seriously than in the past. Should prove to be beneficial since we both want to lose weight so bad.

Lauren's girl scout troop had an even yesterday and I have to admit, I love doing things with the troop. It is also great to have so many new friends from doing these things. Kathy and I got invited to go out with Amber to see her husbands band play one night and I think Penni and Wayne may wind up being some running buddies for us too! Kids are a great social networking tool! I have met some great people by going to Lauren's school and social functions. Add those to the already awesome group of friends I have and it just can't get much better!

Look out sub 300 pounds!

I have to come tell this. I don't know exactly how it got started, other than the hand of God moved over me, but I out of the blue started eating considerably healthier. It started off I had to nix fast food for monetary purposes. But shortly after that, my wife bought some oranges for some unknown reason and I started eating those. Well, that was so good, I went ahead and started buying other fruits like bananas, apples, strawberries, etc. Before too much longer, I was using these as my night time snacks. Then I began to carry fruit to work and made it my mid-morning and mid afternoon snacks. I kinda thought I noticed I may have been a little weight, but I never tried to measure it or anything. I finally got the Wii Fit to weigh on and found out I had lost 5 pounds without really TRYING. So we went a step further and when Katherine cooked, she only made enough for the meal, not for seconds. At first that was a challenge cause I loved a big supper after a long day. But tonight, July 20th, 2009, I almost couldn't finish my plate!!! So for a celabration, we went for a couple of laps around our block as a family! How cool is that?

Summertime!

I have to say, I am loving me some summertime! I have gotten more work done around here in the last month than I have been able to get done in the last two years! I even got the deck I have been yearning for since I moved in here.

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